Our fathers were unwilling to be obedient to [Moses], but repudiated him and in their hearts turned back to Egypt.
~Stephen in Acts 7:39
During busy times in life I often am drawn away from God, when I should be closer to Him. This is detrimental for a number of reasons, but one is that it draws attention to the reality of my heart.
The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?
I’m coming to realize just how changeable my heart is, and how easy it is to fall away if I am not spiritually disciplined. How dare I put myself in danger of this repeatedly by ignoring what I know are the right things to do. Not only do I suffer from the consequences, but my family as well. Thankfully, there is hope.
Therefore let us be diligent to enter that rest, so that no one will fall through following the same example of disobedience. For the word of God is living and active and sharper than any two edged sword, and piercing as far as the division of soul and spirit, of both joints and marrow, and able to judge the thoughts and intentions of the heart. And there is no creature hidden from His sight, but all things are open and laid bare to the eyes of Him with whom we have to do…Let us draw near with confidence to the throne of grace, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.
~Hebrews 4:11, 12, & 16