This book about habits that I am reading is really hard to finish! I think there is a psycological component to it, as if I don’t finish it, then I don’t have to put any of the good things I have learned into practice. Plus, I’m having no trouble analyzing other people and their different habit tendencies, but am not as quick to judge myself and the areas I need to improve. A question in my BSF lesson this week asked, “What truth (of Jesus) have you ignored or rejected this year and how might you begin now to act on it?” Ouch. Judging others and not treating it like disobedience and repenting of it. That is what I do very well. Right now I feel like I am in a crucible of sorts, where I daily, even hourly, must let go of my expectations, not judge according to them, and even forgive when those expectations not being met. The latter must happen because there is wrong being committed, but it is not up to me to fix it. Only God can fix this. I need to love and give. This is easy to say and hard to do. I learned from this habits book that I am particularly affected by disappointment. It can often make me angry, and even make me bitter, if I let it. Relationships are the important thing- with God, with others. Disappointments will come, but my response can build up in love or tear down in hate.
Luke changed my blog some, but kept enough of it the same to let me still use it easily, ha. I hope to try to get in the habit of blogging again. We’ll see how I do.